First of the Lasts

“You know, this is my last Company audition”, she says to me as she runs into the bathroom. “Yes, I know”, I reply out loud. “I’ve thought of nothing else for the past 24 hours.”, I add in my head. “Hurry up and get outside. I need to take a picture.”. Outside, in front of her car she says, “Why? You have never taken pictures of us at audition.” “Because this is the last one,” I answer holding back my tears and in my head, I again add, “and I want to remember everything this year.” She just laughs, poses and flashes me her beautiful smile. Two pictures and she jumps into the car with her younger sister and she is off to her last Company audition.   J’s Senior Year of high school starts in about 6 weeks. The thought alone makes my heart hurt. Not in a heartbreaking way, but in a nostalgic, “I can’t believe we are here” kind of way. I’ve been thru this before with Vincent 3 years ago. But ignorance is bliss and I had no idea what my emotional rollercoaster would be in 2012. I know now. I am, selfishly, not thrilled about it. HER LAST COMPANY AUDITION….. She started dancing at 3. She has been dancing for 14 years. FOURTEEN FREAKIN YEARS!! While dance does not define her, it is a huge part of who she is. That little studio helped make her who she is. She spent hours upon hours of her childhood in that studio. Her dance teachers helped mold that little girl for 14 years. Other than her...